Finding Happiness in You!

Hey guys!

So today I was just scrolling through Facebook and I came across a quote that really stuck out to me and it really inspired me to write a post about it;

‘Never put the key to your happiness in someone else’s pocket’ – Unknown (If anyone does know who wrote this please let me know!)

This really got me thinking…For many of us we tend to find happiness in the wrong places. Whether thats our job, our relationships or even money. I’ve always believed that happiness is a choice, and you can easily decide when you want to be happy and when you don’t. Last year I went through a phase in my life where being happy seemed like the hardest thing in the world. People would always tell me just be happy, don’t let other peoples actions ruin my mood or bad situations bring me down. Through this time I realised I really couldn’t switch back on the happiness like that. It’s really not that easy. Putting something to the back of your mind and pretending to be happy wasn’t an option. I couldn’t do it. But in fact I’ve learnt that its okay to feel crappy once in a while, it’s okay to cry about things that you’re upset over, it’s okay to want to sit in your room and shut everyone out. If it’s what you need to do, than you do it!

I’ve been guilty of depending on other people for happiness, and I’m sure lots of other people have, When that person leaves it feels like the end of the world and the only way to be happy again is for them to come back. A lot of people feel the need to put on a brave face and pretend everything’s okay when in reality it isn’t. Whether it’s losing a relationship or a friendship, you need to allow yourself time to grieve. Breaking up with someone or losing someone is a painful process, as cheesy as it sounds a broken heart is one of the worst pains. Healing takes time, but eventually the days get easier and you’ll start to love yourself again… I found another quote which fits perfectly into what I’m saying here;

‘If you ever lose love, don’t go out looking for it. Reach inside you and recreate what you think you lost. You are love. You can’t lose you.’ – Unknown

You shouldn’t have to depend on a person or a relationship to make you happy. There is always a possibility you will lose that person, but you will ALWAYS have you. Yes, relationships are wonderful and they add so much more to our lives, but they are not here to provide a constant happiness that we can’t find in ourselves. You are a complete and whole person without a relationship.

This is just the same for jobs, don’t let your happiness depend on your next pay day, or your next promotion at work. Don’t let your happiness depend on how many Instagram or Twitter followers you have, or how many likes you get on a profile picture. While these will bring fleeting pleasure this isn’t happiness.

I’ve seen a lot of people (myself included) that get themselves caught up with the past and the future. We can’t change the past, that’s just something we can’t do. We also can’t tell the future, I can’t tell you what will happen to me next week, I can’t tell you what grade I’m going to graduate with or what the weather will be like. I can have a pretty good guess but I don’t know for definite. This is just something that we have to live with. Instead of wishing to change things in your past and trying to prevent things that may or may not happen in your future, find happiness in this moment. There are a lot of things I wish I could change in my past but I’ve realised everything thats happened to me has shaped me into the person I am now, and while ghosts from the past do creep up from time to time, I’ve learnt to embrace it and appreciate both the good and bad.

Don’t let your happiness come from the approval of others, you are beautiful and amazing. Don’t hold grudges! This is an important one, don’t hold a resentment to someone, because all this will do is eat you up inside. I’ve been there before and while holding a grudge against someone seems like the easiest option, it’s the one that makes us hurt the most. Forgive people. Forgiving someone who has hurt you will give you the closure you need to move on, learn how to make peace with people who have wronged you. You are not doing it for them, you are doing it for you. Don’t let your happiness depend on how much weight you lose because you need to get that summer body. If you’re comfortable in your own skin then who is to tell you, you are not beautiful!? Embrace your body, embrace your look. Be the best YOU, you can be!

Don’t ever think that you’re not good enough. It’s okay to not be okay sometimes, embrace, learn and grow with it. I’m going to leave you with one last quote to end this blog post!

‘Be yourself, everyone else is taken.’ – Oscar Wilde

Until next time..

Lots of love,

R x

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I met Ludovico Einaudi!

Hello everyone!!

So the last couple of days have been super busy and I haven’t stopped! (Which is a good thing!)

Monday night I had tickets to see Ludovico Einaudi live at the Bridgewater hall, which was absolutely incredible. I have never come away from a concert that inspired before, if you haven’t seen him live I highly recommend to go and see him, or even youtube him live. The whole band were so tight and worked so well together. Especially the violin and cello player….WOW. The best thing about the whole performance is how the music can make you feel.. (I know that sounds quite cheesy) I was constantly getting shivers and a tear may have been shed. His music is emotionally driven and each piece tells such a beautiful story. So as you can tell I enjoyed it very much!

Not only that but the morning after I got to interview him! When I found out I screamed and nearly collapsed. Meg thought something was seriously wrong.

So I got all my questions prepared and headed off to his hotel (which funnily enough is opposite where I live) His tour manager said to wait in the lobby, so I did. As I was waiting though I could see the band in the restaurant area…I could actually see Ludovico Einaudi eating breakfast and drinking coffee. This is where I fangirled slightly because I was actually watching Einaudi eat what I assume was a croissant. (very good choice)

He then walked over to me…then I started getting really nervous, I didn’t know whether to shake his hand or hug him, he’s italian so do I lean in for the kiss on each cheek!? As you can see I was definitely overthinking it. As he approached we just went for the casual handshake, I was cool with that. He had to go upstairs to his hotel room then he would be back down, at this point I text Meg saying – ‘HE JUST SHOOK MY HAND, I CAN’T BREATHE,  HES GONE UPSTAIRS BUT IS COMING BACK DOWN, DON’T REPLY BECAUSE I’M RECORDING THE INTERVIEW ON MY PHONE, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW!’

I was very excited.

During the interview he was so lovely and made sure to answer each question in detail and took his time with it. He told me about how he got inspiration for certain songs and how long it takes to write his music, he talked about how he rehearses with the band and how he got into playing the piano in the first place. I was just sat in awe and just nodded my head because I couldn’t quite believe it. After the questions were finished he was more than happy to sign  a few things and take a selfie with me. Yes, that is correct. I got a selfie with Ludovico Einaudi.

Another handshake happened to finish the morning and I wished him the best of luck with the rest of his tour, I then made my way to lesson and had the biggest smile on my face. If I’m comparing it, it’s kind of like a 14 year old girl meeting One Direction or Justin Bieber. I’m not kidding.

Once I sort everything out I’ll be sure to put the interview in a blog at some point, you won’t be disappointed.

I’m now cracking on with Business revision..super fun.

Anyway until next time..

Lots of Love,

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Lectures, Rehearsals and Jim Chapman

Hello everyone!

So today has been a pretty busy day for a Wednesday! It started off with a nice lie in since I didn’t have to be up early for anything. (What a busy start to the day already eh!?) Once I pulled myself out of bed I started on with some Music Business revision, and stuck at that for a good 10 minutes before I got distracted by Netflix and ended up watching a documentary.

The documentary was called Blackfish and I highly recommend anyone who hasn’t seen it to go and watch it. It’s a beautifully filmed documentary on Tilikum, the Killer Whale that is kept in captivity over in Sea World Orlando. It showed the heartbreaking story of the capture of Tilikum and the way he has lived for over 3o years in Seaworld. (I may have cried once or twice) I was honestly quite shocked and appalled at how everything works over there – So I would definitely recommend a watch!

After my movie morning I decided that it would be best to crack on and do more business revision like the good student that I am! Then, before I knew it I had to rush off to a lecture which I really wasn’t looking forward too – but ended up being quite insightful.

It’s been a pretty miserable day in Manchester and so as I was walking home it was raining. (Shocker) But I survived the down pour and buckled down to attempt more revision. Instead of getting distracted by Netflix, I got distracted by food this time, and I made myself the most delicious tea. Cooked right from scratch it was Chicken, Mozzarella, Onions, Olives, Pasta and a Tomato pesto. BEAUTIFUL.

I then had rehearsal,  which I look forward to every week! Unfortunately my bassist Jordan wasn’t there – but like the professionals we are, we still went ahead.  The rehearsal went brilliantly and I’m so pleased that we now have a full set down! My guitarist James and drummer Alex (who I also call Jim Chapman – If you don’t know him, google him, the resemblance is creepy) were also very pleased.

I then headed back to my little flat, and will probably watch an episode of Making a murderer or Luther. (If you haven’t seen any of these shows go and watch them now, I promise you, you will not be disappointed.)

Anyway until next time…

Lots of Love,

R x

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New to this!

Hello Everyone!

So I thought it would be a really cool idea to start up a blog! Just to keep everyone updated on whats going on in my life, with my music and just general things that are happening. I’ve never done this before so I am slightly nervous…..

I don’t actually know how well I can write, my English GCSE doesn’t really say a lot (oops!) but I will give it ago anyway (HOW EXCITING!)

So today is Tuesday, and Tuesday is probably the busiest day of the week for me. I have lectures 9-3 which as you can tell doesn’t sound like a ball of fun. But oddly enough I actually enjoyed all my lectures today (mainly because the first lesson was over after 3o minutes, but that’s not the point)

9am lectures kill me, and if the lesson is on about something I’m not interested in then the probability of me concentrating is very low. You will probably find me scrolling through Instagram for an hour and a half.

After all my lessons are done I then head back to my very cosy and warm flat which I share with my best friend… and by warm and cosy I mean absolutely freezing! We have the coldest flat in Manchester – I’m not even joking! You will most likely find me and my flat mate (Meg) wrapped up in 4 layers or more, cups of tea (speciality may I add) hot water bottles, slippers and if we’re feeling extra chilly a blanket. This is when I miss living at home, where you would come home from school to a warm house with the fire on, sit down and watch That’s So Raven or Lizzie Mcguire on the TV.

But tonight we won’t be little old ladies drinking cups of tea as we are heading out to see one of our friends play at a gig.  I LOVE going to watch people perform, I find it so inspiring, even if its not my kind of music I will always come away from a gig wanting to sit  down at my piano and write. You get such a buzz from a live show whether in a small venue watching your friends play a few songs or a big arena show. I love that feeling.

So – I hope you’ve enjoyed my first post! I know it’s very short (I apologise)

I also don’t know how well my grammar has been throughout this. I am just going to assume it’s amazing.

Anyway until next time..

Lots of Love,

R x